I guess i've been acting a little bit paranoid these few days. I mean its okay right? To be paranoid at times. Not always i've been this way. Actually the whole October i've been paranoid. Gosh this sucks. My emotions are pretty fucked up. I know why i was paranoid and a bit self centered at times. Maybe because i'm afraid of losing my love ones or they abandoned me like how my dad did 9 freaking years ago or certain somebody ditch me 2 years back. I can't live like this... I just can't lose anyone right now. I want to be secured again, protected by everybody. You know those kind of feelings when you're surrounded with loves? Those heart warming feelings? Those faces that makes your day better? Those times when you wake up with a smile on your face and times when you got nothing to worry about? Yeah i miss those times when everything was good and perfect for me. I guess this stupidity of thinking shenanigans stuffs makes me paranoid. I shouldn't feel this way but i guess its okay? Once in a while...Enough talking. Let November decide my story for a change.
Labels: Happy November