The heart that was once open for me is now closed. I regret every single thing i’ve done to hurt you. So much it kills me. Now you’re off with someone else, and im here just stuck with regrets. I do not know how to live without you, i feel useless and im just like a fish gasping for air. Im now back to square one where i always will be, abandoned by my own mistakes. I dont know how it feels like anymore. You’re always who i always wanted. I just have to fuck things up didnt i? Now the opportunity for me to come back is really really slim. I dont know how to be away from you. I dont know how to live without you. I dont know how to do things without you. I dont know how to stay calm without you. Im just here. Floating with my own existence just being here. What the hell am i supposed to do? I am dying. May you find peace. Im just here. Craving for you. Craving for your soul. Craving for your heart to open up to me again. I dont know what to do now. I am so depressed. I am so stressed out. Im dying. Is living even a choice now?